|I'm still doing photography,|
just less of it than I did before.
Fast forward a few more years (past high school) and life has now gotten in the way, my "plan" of becoming a photographer was almost completely squashed for many reasons (one being a very unsupportive photography teacher that only showed interest in jocks and pretty girls), and I found myself running on the hamster wheel. My "wants" and insecurities overpowered my "plan." So, I caved, enrolled myself in college for a business degree and believed I was destined to become another corporate lackey. My "plan" changed once again. I HATED business! (primarily because of all the math)
Skip ahead two more years and I changed my "plan" again. Now I was diligently working towards a degree in History (kinda close to archeology...sorta). I worked, studied, read A LOT, wrote A LOT MORE, and managed to complete my BA in History with a minor in English Literature. I thought I'd get my Masters and teach at the junior college level someday. Education doesn't pay and I had bills...LOTS of bills. During all this time, I was on again and off again employed. I chalk it up to my restlessness because nothing I was doing was what my heart and soul were telling me to do. So, I made another adjustment to my "plan."
|The proud college graduate!|
I still have a sketchy idea of a "plan" and it is usually prefaced with many "if's." IF Rae doesn't walk. IF Rae has to have a wheel chair. IF she has another seizure. IF the doctors can actually diagnosis her. IF we can find some assistance. IF...IF...IF...IF
What I can definitely "plan" for are more days like today... Taking a break to spend the afternoon with my best friend Olivia (Rae's honorary Aunt) & her son Oliver (Rae's boyfriend). Watching as Rae takes her first swim of the year and with gentle splashes in the water (a newly developed pleasure). Smiling as the water hits her cheeks and laughing at her own silliness. She had a great afternoon swimming, playing with Lily the cat (see video), eating Cheetos (yup, you read that right), and watching Dinosaur Train. I also "plan" to enjoy the present and try my hardest not to worry about the next kink in our "plan" that may or may not change our course.
"The best laid plans of mice and men often go astray."